Fear - by Fran Watson

FEAR



Of what am I afraid, you ask.
Of myself, I answer,
the self I have hidden
deep down inside.
The one I'm afraid you won't like,
the one I sometimes don't like either.
the scared self.

I'm afraid that parts of this self
will rise to the surface
and I won't be able
to push them back down.
I will no longer be able to hide them
and maybe I'll lose some of what I have…
my friends, my loves,
my present lifestyle.

I feel like so many parts of me
are fighting for control of my being.
I feel torn apart, confused,
wondering what I can safely let out
and what will escape.
I wonder how I'll put myself back together,
which pieces will stay
and which will be gone.

I don't know what will happen
and I'm afraid of the unknown.
It's so much safer
just existing as I am.
but I know I must face myself
if I'm to have any peace.
And I want peace.


Fear
Copyright 2002
Fran Watson

www.franwatson.ca
Renfrew, Ontario




A little about Fran Watson

Fran is an author and a Distinguished Toastmaster who enjoys learning and self-development. Fran earned her BA Social Development Studies through Waterloo University. She has also completed training in Myers Briggs, GATB and Personality Dimensions (True Colors). Fran is currently doing Career Coaching and has over 20 years experience in the field of career and employment counselling. She has developed and facilitated numerous workshops, written articles, and done one-on-one coaching.


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